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so, another long absence. i'm sorry.
the reason i took a break has to do with my ex. we got into a huge fight a couple of weeks ago, about the time i posted my last vlog here. i'm not going to say what happened, but something he did hurt me a lot and i reacted in a very immature and horrible way. i said and did awful things to him, to the point where he threatened to hurt himself because of me. i felt so lost after the fight with him, and my friend told me that even though i was an atheist, it might help if i prayed. i was confident that nothing would happen, but i thought, "hell, it can't hurt," so i prayed for God to help relieve my pain and take away my anger.
as soon as i was done, i immediately felt less burdened. i knew then that God was real and He does listen to prayers... He did for me. so, i've been concentrating on finding my way back to Him & trying to figure out what He wants me to do. that's why i've been gone.
at any rate, i'm starting fresh on monday. you'll hear from me then :)
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