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Today is the start of a new week for me. My last week of work before I go on vacation. I'm so looking forward to getting a plane next Saturday night to go east and see my parents and sister. I'm taking my oldest girl with me. We should have a blast.
Weight and health-wise the last 6 months have not been good. I haven’t gained any weight, but I sure haven't lost any either. I have been making the switch from really trying to lose weight to being more active and healthier. Over the last 6 months I have come to realize that I have been running on fumes. I saw a counselor for a while and after a little bit of prodding by her I admitted that I was and am still burnt out. Dealing with looking after my youngest has been very hard. We put her in care in November. She really likes her apartment and most of her 8 to 10 workers. My counselor made sure that I acknowledged that she has a minimum of 8 people looking after her now. I am 1 person. It has been hard to let go but I know that this is best for her and for me. Why is it so hard to look after me and put myself first? I have been working on trying to figure out what I want and not what hubby, my kids and friends want, but really what do I want.
Last night we had friends stop in for drinks and we ended up sitting in the backyard and all I could see was my overgrown garden and junk that has accumulated in the yard over the years. I know that none of our friends noticed or cared if they did, but for the first time in forever I cared. Today I am going to get a little bit done to make it nicer again. I know that this will be a big project and won’t be completed all at once, my body just won't do that much work in one day anymore. So today I am going to work in my garden. I need to take it back. This year I have done nothing in it and in truth the last few years I really didn't do anything at all. I’m going to pull everything and start fresh next spring.
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84.8 kg
これまでの減量分: 1.0 kg.
残り: 25.9 kg.
ダイエット続き: まあまあ.
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週に0.3 kg減量中
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