valerieaustin1の日記, 2014年 12月 28日

I went to my FAVORITE Mexican restaurant last night as a gift to my Mom for Christmas. I have to be honest, I was expecting to break from 100% vigilance to my food plan and have at least a teaspoon of rice and beans and maybe even one chip with their amazing salsa.

Here's what I realized though, sitting there with mom's delicious food sitting there alongside my grilled chicken salad. A teaspoon of anything will not satisfy the desire I have for it and neither will one chip so why poke the sleeping dragon.

I'm a recovering crack addict, clean for 25 years now. I have often said that as ugly as it sounds, if there was an amount of my drug of choice that would "satisfy" beast, then I would be back at it. But the reality is, I know 100% certain that once I take the 1st hit I am insatiable so for today, I am free from that bondage.

I am so grateful to God that last night, for the 1st time ever, I have made that same identification with food. This morning it crossed my mind of how silly the thinking was that a teaspoon off mom's plate would be ok for me. Mexican food is my absolute most favorite food. It would have brought a sad morning today because I know that I am just as insatiable to those wonderful flavors and carbs as I am to my drug of choice.

138.1 kg これまでの減量分: 9.8 kg.    残り: 6.6 kg.    ダイエット続き: 100%.

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690 kcal

脂質: 42.26g | たんぱく質: 69.82g | 炭水化物: 5.32g.   夕食: Mexican Meatloaf. もっと...