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~There's the dietary roller coaster~And, then there's the emotional one~
One of the challenges I find when endeavoring to lose weight is not so much the dietary roller coaster, it's the emotional roller coaster this journey puts one on. There's a few factors involved I'm aware of that contribute to this and I'm definitely sure there's a few factors I don't know about. One of the factors I try to keep in my mind when feeling like the knob on my emotional meter has just been dialed up is the "hormonal" aspect. As a peri-menopausal woman, I may not experience a monthly cycle, but my body has stored estrogen in its fat cells, specifically the "visceral" fat in my body. When that starts to burn, the body releases that estrogen, which can contribute to mood swings.
But, there's also the emotional impact that comes from breaking old habits in order instill new ones. The long term result may be beneficial, but the short term doesn't always feel great. There's a temperamental 2 year old in all of us (no matter what your age) screaming, "But, I want...I want...I want" and like an over tired parent, it can feel difficult not to give in to that voice just to shut it up!
Then there's a bit of suppressed anger. I find myself getting incredibly "testy" and annoyed with this "obesogenic" society we live in. Why is it always the proverbial box of of "donuts" or "cookies" brought into work as a "treat"? Why is the "veggie tray" not seen as a just dessert? I remember a former manager of mine in a different job once brought in apples for us to munch on and you know what? We ate every single one of those apples and I don't even like apples that much! But, in most cases our society quietly scorns the person attempting to contribute something healthy and then turns around and condemns us if we're obese and unhealthy! It's everywhere! And, though I do feel we all have to be accountable for our own personal choices, it's hard to admonish folks for the choices made in our diets when the majority of choices available are pure crap! And, don't get me started on the weight loss industry!
I'm beginning to see the emotional and psychological impact this has on all of us simply trying to achieve a goal of decent health, weight loss, and maintenance. I care about people and I care about my own body. I'm not saying the journey needs to be "easy peasy", but it makes me angry our society and culture as a whole goes out of it's way to make it so hard!
I confess it makes me feel rebellious. I'm not a big fast food eater if at all, but it makes me want to flip the bird to every fast food joint I walk past.
And, then I confess there's the other voice in my head that wants to feed complacency and "fat serenity" and yet I know at 198 lbs and 43 years old that is not a voice I have the luxury to listen to anymore. And, that really bites because I have to realize I might have had that luxury back in my 30's but not now and again I can feel that indulgent inner 2 year old throw a hissy fit while I'm pedaling away on the recumbent bike at level 13 getting my butt kicked.
And, again I know this is all part in parcel of breaking old habits and instilling new ones and then on top of it, coming to terms with all the garbage that led us to unhealthy habits to begin with. But, sometimes I just want to go out in the middle of beautiful gorgeous meadow full of lilies and give a
A LOUD, HEARTY, AND VORACIOUS PRIMAL SCREAM!!!!!
...just that thought makes me smile. I hope all of you have a beautiful, warm, and loving day :-)
ダイエットカレンダーを表示, 2017年 04月 11日:
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1568 kcal
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脂質: 68.19g | たんぱく質: 82.09g | 炭水化物: 96.41g.
朝食: Stir Fried Vegetables, Coffee with Cream and Sugar, Tomato and Cucumber Salad with Oil and Vinegar, Rockfish Tilapia. 昼食: Signature Cafe Grilled Chicken Caesar Salad with Salad Dressing. 軽食/その他: Red Table Wine, Kashi Chewy Granola Bars - Chocolate Almond & Sea Salt, Chobani Nonfat Peach Greek Yogurt. もっと...
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