Thank you everyone. I was lucky to have a good long talk with a dear friend yesterday (and unfortunately three MORE pieces of cake!) about the things that have been getting me down, and I've come away feeling a little more hopeful, aided I'm sure by a decent walk with her yesterday and another with hubby today. I'm lacking motivation myself but if I can get other people alongside I can make the efforts I haven't been making myself, to stand in the gap until I'm ready to take up the mantle myself again.