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It is Monday morning and a beautiful day here. I love the cool temerature and beautiful blue sky. This weekend was a good one and I painted fence for about 5 hours on Saturday. DId yard work on Sunday by chopping the polk Salad and privet hedge that was growing in the fence and around the trees, My arms back legs etc are all tired and sore. I am sure it is good for me but :) I'd rather not be tired and sore.
I have to say that things are not going well for me these days on the WOE. It has been very hard to stay on track the last week or so. Part of it amay be due to the change in routine. Weekend before last was a whirlind trip to Texas and back. This past week was spent driving everyday to Birmingham for work and not having the normal expense account for food. I just did not eat at all for lunch and then ate when I got home. I know these are not good things and are excuses. Mayabe they are not excuses in as much as they are slipping back to my old WOE. I have also not journaled much at all and not kept up with my food tracker as much as I normally do. I have been extremely busy with work and life but I am wondering why am I too busy for myself? Why have I not journaled or kept up with my food when i know it is good for me to do so? I have also turned to sugar alchohols for comfort. Had no sugar added ice cream and purchases some carb conscious protein bars. I have been feeling really bad in the morning and the bars seem to help. My guess is that I feel bad because I am not eating well. At least in part. but it really has too much similarity to the vertigo symptoms and Blood Pressure issues for me to be certain of that. but still - i am certain the food has something to do with it too.
I think i sound a bit down today but I really am not. I just am trying to figure out why I seem to be slowly sabotaging myself. Is it because I feel I have reached my goal? I have not. Is it because my husband seems to think i have reached my goal and should be "back to normal?" I know this is normal for me. Why would I let this WOE change back to "normal"? I can't help but think it is actually related to fear and lack of knowledge. I believe that I need to start going onto OWL. With my lack of structure and hate of planning, I think I just have loosened up my WOE and am hoping that all will be well. That is nothing more than stupidity. I know that I have to be diligent and slow when adding back carbs.... but that knowledge has not worked its way into my life just yet.
I have not weighted myself because I am scared to do so. First it was because I did not have batteries for my Wii. Then it was because I had not been able to go to the bathroom for about a week and I knew I did not want to see the pounds under that condition. This morning, I still did not get on and it was simple fear. I don't want to see a gain and I expect that i will. In addition to the ice cream and bars, I have been drinking Diet Mountain Dew and Diet pepsi with little to no water. How stupid can I be??? I know better. Why have I not been better?
I know all I can do is get back on the wagon but we all know how hard that is. I am trying to get started back down the right path today. I can only hope that I take my 'dunce hat' off and get back to business. I know I have friend who have lost an amaing amount of weight and have been at this for a much longer time than I have. What caused you to keep it up? How did you motivate yourself to succeed day after day?
I just can't seem to find the time to put myself first in life or maybe I am putting myself first and my health last. Maybe I feel as if I have been at it long enough and my health is still not responding as I wanted it to. Maybe the sweet ice cream is me putting my wants and desires first. Am I that shallow a person? Maybe so... We all know I have not added in the exercise that I know I need. Ive had plenty of reasons and excuses but no actual progress toward a healtier life. Maybe I amdown today - did not think so.... But I do need to think about things a bit......
ダイエットカレンダーを表示, 2011年 10月 3日:
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1896 kcal
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脂質: 132.74g | たんぱく質: 144.95g | 炭水化物: 36.05g.
朝食: Cos or Romaine Lettuce, Singles American Cheese Slices, egg, Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds) . 昼食: sharp cheddar cheese sargento, Original Dressing, pepper rings, Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten). 夕食: Milled Flaxseed, torani sugar free, splenda, baking soda, butter, egg, Asparagus, Real Mayonnaise, Beef Steak (Lean Only Eaten). 軽食/その他: water, water, water, water. もっと...
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Wow! You've got a lot going on on that plate of yours! It sounds like you know what you're doing wrong you're just struggling to find your way to fixing it. But... facing the issue is half the battle. You can do this - you have done this. And - as with everything in our lives - mistakes happen. We stray a bit from the path that is more difficult and look to take the "easy" way.
Instead of beating yourself up - lift yourself up. You have come a long way and have already moved yourself towards a healthier you. I think you're just tired. Worn down. Battle weary. This isn't an easy ride.
Chin up. Don't let you be your own worst enemy!
I have faith in you! :)
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We'd be unhuman if sweet treats like ice cream didn't appeal to us at times. I think allowing for a bit of wiggle room in a diet isn't bad, but a critical part. It's unrealistic to think you'll live your whole life without a slice of cake or a bowl of ice cream. Resist meeting your whole calorie goals during the week (IE less 100 every day) and you can treat yourself to that special something you've been craving. Don't get down on yourself. You'll be back on track soon.
2011年 10月 3日 投稿者: healthy_allie
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Thanks guys. I appreciate the encouragement and advice.
This week is a little bit more normalized. I am working from home so I have purchased salad for lunch and will get back on track. I finally ate up the ice cream last night so it is no longer a foe for me. I hope to make a cheesecake sometime this week and that will be a great help. it is funny - when i am at home I crave sweets much more than when I am on the road. I was thinking about that and realized that my husband eats sweets after every meal. he is always in the Little Debbie box or telling me to get him something sweet at the grocery store. No wonder it is harder when i am home :)
I guess as with everything it breaks down to moderation and choices. I could be eating real ice cream and cookies but I am not. I choose not to do that to myself. I also could eat the entire half gallon of ice cream in one sitting. I choose not to do that to myself either. I can see these choices as successes if I want to. And I am not trying to beat myself up. i know I have come a long way and will succeed eventually. I just have to figure out how to stop some behaviors. I need to find an acceptible reward that will not cause me to crave more and more. Maybe these bars are a good way to go. They do seem to be filling and have a sweet and chewy texture. I plan to go back to induction type foods for a bit and see what happens next Sunday (weigh in day). Then maybe I can add the bar back and see what it does to me. I may have to face facts that sweets are just not good for me and stick to fruits although I have portion control problems with them. Oh well...... Having twice as many strawberries as I am allowed is still better than having that pie :)
2011年 10月 3日 投稿者: esimnons
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I stall when I use the Atkins products - but I too often look for something sweet. My treats? Pork rinds tossed with 1TBL of melted butter with cinnamon and truvia. Sometimes I'll even dip them in whipped cream. :) Another good one is carb control strawberry yogurt by dannon mixed with whipped cream and frozen. Finally - make your own strawberry ice cream in the food processor with frozen whole strawberries, heavy/whipping cream, and truvia to taste. But - if that just makes you crave more then yeah, it makes it tough. I look forward to your results on Sunday - it might make it all worth it. :)
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Those are great suggestions. I really like the idea on the strawberry ice cream. I do find that the carb control yogurts are good for me. I like the fact that i get some milk products plus they taste yummy. AND they are an easy snack. Plus, I love the muffin in a minute stuff when I have the ability to cook one. I may do that this evening :)
2011年 10月 3日 投稿者: esimnons
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